Dancing with a thorn. I know I'm gonna hurt myself but I couldn't reject her. Of all traits, this is my only weakness. Of all people, her. The one person that's on my mind every single day without fail for the past 5 years, nearing 6. And just about every movie that has a cheesy romantic feud between a couple, where either one have broke up with each other and after a few years feelings are still there. And boy saves girl, or girl cries and admits to boy, all ends up good and they lived happily ever after. Bullcrap...

Its more like... Guy never had a day passed without her in his mind. Guy makes it a point to check on how she is subtly, if she's happy and doing well. Guy makes random hello and hi to have small conversations with her. After a few years, guy had enough of the pain and cuts all contact except on a social network, where her profile is hidden away so no updates will reach him. Though guy did that, he maintains a contactable link from her to him in case she needs help, but not the other way round. Guy tried to be there for her when things are at the lowest, but due to the past guy felt restricted to give warmth and comfort. Guy attempts to close it all by admiting, after 5 years, he has not moved on, and swore to be there for her whenever and wherever possible if she ever needs a hand. A parting gift, a thousand cranes, a drop of unseen tear.

And since there are no movie endings, it goes on. She asked for a dance. Guy hesitated. Didn't respond with a yes or no, but said to call him if she wants to. Didn't brought up further. Ended conversation by saying going to sleep but remains on blogger.

My heart felt warm when she asked if I'd go salsa with her but in that warmth that sharp pointy pain is there. Ever present and stabbing. Please relief me of this pain. I do not wish to feel negative with her.